Everyone has certain things they don't like about
themselves. Things they wish they could change. Whether it's the color of your hair or your eyes or how tall/short you are,
how much you weigh, your personality, etc, everyone's got something they want to change.
"Big is beautiful", some people have told me. I'm sorry. I can't accept that.
I'm not saying that fat people are ugly because they're not but I'm not about to accept something that I can change. Ever
heard the saying, "Lord, give me the courage to change what can be changed, the serenity to accept what cannot be changed,
and the wisdom to know the difference" or something like that?
Well, I am 100 pounds overweight, which is not healthy in the least, and if I
were to accept myself at 100 pounds overweight, it's like accepting a job done in a half-ass manner. I'm not being the best
I can be, to be the healthiest I can be.
I'm not out to be model thin and I don't have unrealistic expectations. I know
that my life's not suddenly going to become perfect and happy when the weight comes off. Believe me, I've been at my goal
weight before and my life did not become in the least, less stressful. The fear of gaining the weight back actually made my
life more stressful.
Losing weight and getting in shape is an uphill battle that requires determination,
motivation, and dedication. So many times I've begun this journey only to give up. That's because I was only trying to change
what's on the outside.
This time, I'm working on the inside as well.
I will never be happy with myself on the outside if I'm not happy on the inside.
And this time, I'm ready to give it my all. Not to the point where I'm obsessed with it, but to the point where it becomes
a lifestyle and not some temporary thing. I want to be fit, want to be happy, and by God, I'm gonna do it.
So, here's to every step of my journey.
The journey to a beautiful and healthy me.
